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I lied to my wife...

Thu, 08 Oct 2009 20:17:32 GMT

and I feel horrible about it...

Don't worry...I didn't sleep with anyone else or have a horrible gambling addiction.

I lied about smoking. I told her I wouldn't and I did.

Then I got caught.

She's pissed as she has every right to be.

Every bone in my body wants to defend my right to smoke. It's not like I smoke every day...I smoke MAYBE once a month. But at the same time, I do realize that I'm lying to my wife about it.

Talk about swallowing a bowling ball.

Not as "back" as I thought I was...

Wed, 26 Aug 2009 00:13:00 GMT

Work work work

sleep sleep

Guitar, Brazilian Jiu Jitsu, Paintball, Motorcycle, shooting zombies in the face...

Wife Wife Wife and mmmmmmmmm Wife...

So there it is folks, that's my life...

I've been busy...Gone are the days of bringing my laptop to work...I have my iPhone keeping me company for my 8 hour shift...No more blogging on shift...Now it's sudoku and mafia wars...

Life is slowing down to a manageable pace...I like it a lot more like this...I'm breathing easier...I think it's the fact that I quit smoking...

I feel so much more focused...I think it's the fact that I quit drinking...

There are many times I run into friends that I haven't seen in weeks or even months...
Paying bills...You know how it goes...

It's funny to watch people make the same mistakes over and over...I stopped wasting my time to help...

In other words, I stopped reading datingish.com

hahahaha...

Climbing the career ladder...

Climbing the social ladder...

Climbing onto my wife...

Climbing onto my bike...

I'll be sure to stop by here every now and then...I don't even think anyone even reads me anymore...

I need to change my name to

whatyourhusbandreallythinks

The weird thing is, my wife already knows...I have no need to vent since I don't have to hold it in...Although this makes for boring xanga entries, it makes for a completely blessed marital life...

I would give you guys my twitter, but most of you guys who read me already have it...

I would give you my facebook, myspace or yelp, but you don't really care...

I remember trying so hard to break into the xanga community only to be met with the same people too cool to talk to me from high school...

Oh well...

Music is different now...It's not as melancholy...It's not as emo...

It has zest...It has brighter, happier tones...

Life is good....

Back from my sabbatical...

Tue, 02 Jun 2009 09:58:05 GMT

Well...

First of all, I'm back...

I've had a lot of questions thrown my way, both by xangans and my close friends and family...I'll try to address them as best as I can...

I got married to my match in Bali last month... So soon? Yes...I met her at a Thanksgiving party and she was dating one of my friends at the time...So what? She's a little younger than me... A little...It's not like K where she was still in middle school when I was in boot camp...My wife is just a few years younger than me...

My match...Ahhh...My match...

If you have read any of the venom I put out on datingish.com, you must think I'm a total jackass...A bastard beyond all belief...How could my dumb ass find a wife to put up with my attitude?

Easy...She's just as venomous as I am if not MORE...

She has no idea why girls act the way they do...She makes fun of emotionally unstable, indecisive women even MORE than I do...She does not have girlfriends and she likes it that way. No drama...She takes care of business and kicks ass while she's at it...She doesn't let her emotions become a liability...If she has issues, she's up front with them...If I ask her what's wrong, she tells me straight...None of this "nothing" or "I'm fine" bullshit...No mind games...Just a straight up relationship...Definitely not what I was experiencing on the dating scene...

Something else that I found refreshing was that she stands her ground and most importantly, she defends her positions with LOGIC, not EMOTION...When she gets upset, she lets me know and walks away...She understands that fighting while emotional just gets ugly and nothing gets solved...

My wife also does NOT expect me to provide for her financially...She is truly independent and would look at me funny if I tried to belittle her by feeling obligated to pay for things...If she wants to do something, she does it...She plans it, she finances it and she does it...No excuses, no indecisiveness...

It's fucking beautiful...It makes my soul smile that I found someone that is capable of taking care of herself...

Now where do I come in?

I eat vagina well...In her words, "I want to lock that tongue down..."

HAHAHAHAHA...What can I say? She obviously has good taste...That and she tastes good... ;)

Our views on a lot of things agree very well and we both understand we don't have to be perfectly aligned down the middle...

I'd love to show you Indonesia pictures and wedding photos, but my face is pretty much plastered all over them and we all know how much I love my anonymous blogging...

On non-marriage notes...

I finally got my first motorcycle...I don't even know where to start on riding...It's one of the most calming and exhilarating rushes I've ever legally experienced...My blood pressure has dropped about 25 points both systolic and diastolic since I've been riding...I must recommend motorcycle therapy for anyone that can stomach the ride...

I've also taken up paintballing...Something about playing chess with guns and people shooting back at you reminds you how vulnerable you are...You realize that you must rely on your team and that you must act together or you will fail...I really like objective based team games...In paintball, you get all of this and a handful of exercise...

Between all the sex, paintballing and motorcycle riding, I'm a happy guy...Throw in the video games and time with my loved ones, and I'm pretty much set...I'm also loving my nursing job more and more...

Life is just good...

And for all of you guys that asked...

We planned the wedding before I even proposed...I ended proposing in bed 12 hours before the ceremony right before falling asleep while spooning...

And to set things even more backwards, I told her I loved her for the first time AFTER we got married...I didn't want to jinx it...hahahaha...

Any more questions? You know what to do...

PS: I rode elephants, SCUBA dived, rented a motorcycle, rented a scooter, got addicted to peppermint tea and lost 20 lbs while in Indonesia...Sweat my balls off...

PPS: My wife is not Filipino like I am...I've been told that half white, half Asian babies make good mixes...

PPPS: My wife is TALL...She's about 5'10"...I have 3 inches on her...And about 6 inside of her...HAHAHAHA

Okay...Seriously, I'm done...

Friday, April 17, 2009

Fri, 17 Apr 2009 19:01:20 GMT

Back from Bali...

Got married...

Looking for motorcycle...

It's been awhile...

Tue, 10 Feb 2009 03:31:51 GMT

Since I could call you...

It's been awhile, eh?

School and work...I've become a drone...

Girlfriend...Thank God for the girlfriend...

Things are so good that I have nothing to complain about...

Which means I have nothing to write about...

With as much school and work I've been doing, I haven't been logging in xanga, facebook, myspace...

No more fire and brimstone responses to datingish... I'd so rather be going down on my girlfriend...

Working on getting a tombstone on two wheels aka. motorcycle...

Going to Bali for 10 days during spring break...

Statistics is awesome...Chemistry is breaking my balls...

I feel good...

And I knew that I would...

I feeeeeeeel good...

And I knew that I would...

So good...

So good...

That I got meu...

Doot doot doot doot doot doot...

Oh yeah...

Thu, 08 Jan 2009 15:02:13 GMT

A man came up to me in LA and said,

"Excuse me, sir, but could you spare some change because I'm hungry an--"

"Yo dude, I'm hungry too...Do you know where I can get free food?"

He was not amused...

Also, my personal favorite response when people ask me for change...

"Change comes from within..."

I'm not cheap, I just don't believe in welfare...

Damn... It's been 2 weeks?

Thu, 08 Jan 2009 13:18:16 GMT

Well happy new year?

I know it's been awhile...

I've been busy...Rotating work schedule, holidays, family time, I'm going back to college to expedite my bachelors, ...

Thailand? Australia? Diddy Reese?

Motorcycle license...Still need motorcycle...Congratulations to the best friend on purchasing his new bike...Looks like we have a little crew between the four of us...

I'm took a small break from datingish, yelp, myspace, facebook, xanga and the internet in general...hahaha...My footprint count went from 1000 footprints a week back down to 300...Not that it really matters...I'm surprised anyone actually reads this for the content...Most of the people visiting the site are pervs looking for more pictures (I don't blame them...) or people jumping over from datingish...

There has been a whirlwind of events since Thanksgiving...

I realized I stopped writing in here a while ago...I think it all started when I went on the datingish comment quest...I want to say I was negative, but every comment I look back on, I know I still was very true to myself and called it how I saw it...I've made concious efforts to really stay away from datingish blogs that are seriously garbage slam dunks AKA I'm looking for a pity party, my boyfriend is a moron, I have no social skills, I have no self esteem left, I'm a hater...You know, the negative stuff...I'll save good comments for extra special posts...

So about the girlfriend...Yeah...Awesome...It's good to have something in common other than great sex...I remember before, I told someone on datingish that I had the patience to stick it out for a girl that was what I wanted...I'd have to say I got pretty close to what I was looking for...She doesn't post half naked pictures online because I get private shows all the time...

5'10", 124 lbs, 34" inseam...tall...OMG legs and a ballet dancers body...Can we say "jungle gym"?
Graduated early from high school, finished her BS by 20 and has owned her own business since she was 23...This one is driven and self motivated...
Isn't looking to "mold" or "make over" her boyfriend...She understands that any changes that are gonna happen are gonna be initiated by myself and for my own benefit...
Enjoys the fact that I have my own friends and actually make time for them...
Plays a lot of video games...Now that I think about it, I've walked into the room and it looking exactly like that picture I use for my profile picture...Not only did my jaw drop when I entered the room, but she then proceeded to has kick my ass at puzzle bobble, pin ball, DoA2 and Mario Kart...This is no easy feat...Just ask methodick...
Watchs sports and appreciates it...She loves attending live sporting events...Literate in UFC...This is a big wow...
Eats like she has a tape worm...
My family likes her already...
Brutally honest...Believes that being straight forward is the best way to save time...If you're acting like a cunt, she will not hesitate to call you a "cunt" and call you out...And you will know who you are when you read this, but she even called someone a "Mongolian" for acting like a "Mongolian" with no prompt... (There is nothing wrong with Mongolians...) Seriously, funniest thing I've heard out of a girls mouth in a long time...
Believes that confrontation is the first step in mutual problem resolution and has no problems with it...This is REALLY important...
Likes the fact that I can pull girls, but likes it even more that I pulled her...
Understands that we both need space and other friends...
Well traveled and consistant in finding new places to go...Australia and Thailand were mentioned earlier for this reason...
Very physically active...I will be taking her rock climbing...She wants to take me frozen waterfall climbing...hahaha...go karting, laser tag,
Planner...
Does not drink...
Does not smoke...
Does not expect me to stop smoking or drinking, but will definitely support me if I want to stop...
Being that she only works 4 months out of the year, she can afford to be as spontaneous as I am with my nursing schedule...Works out pretty well...

Yes, I have cons too...
She dated one of my brother's friends...If you knew some of the circles I'm close to, you'd understand why this is a con...
Volatile family situation...
Can bring work or family situation into personal time...This red flag maybe a deal breaker...I'll talk to her about this...
Procrastinater...Bad when both people in a relationship are like this...
Messy...On a scale of one to ten, I'm about a 6...She's probably an 7.8...
Not always a con, but a little too low maintenence sometimes...
As independant and driven as she is, she does have an occassion princess moment...No one is perfect...

I find that sometimes we have too much in common...
"I work well under pressure" usually = "I'm a procrastinator..." Ehhh...I know this all too well...hahahaha...

It's been a month already, but we're really trying to take it slow...

I know what some of you might be thinking...

What about K?

Well...She's slid into a friends role...She's pretty busy with work and her son so I have left it to her to contact me when she has time to hang out...I'll always care about her, but I don't have to wonder if it would have ever worked out...

What about H?

Slid into the friends role much more easily, but checks in pretty consistantly...

What about W?

Tried to talk to her on facebook to catch up, but she's still angry about events just after our breakup...Talk about holding a grudge...

What about *insert your favorite letter here*?

I don't know...I stopped trying and they disappeared...That usually means that they're not worth my time...C'est la vie, non?

I had a friend of mine ask me what this all means...He asked me if having a girlfriend would mean that I wouldn't go out any more...

Of course I will...I know myself...I know I'm not a cheater...I will wingman the shit outta my friends...I will still run game out of good sportsmanship and practice...I don't want to develop any social rust...I think it's important to still be able to talk to other girls while you're in a relationship...I know my boundaries...I know her comfort and respect levels...

Hello 2009...

I have a contest...I NEED JUDGES...

Fri, 19 Dec 2008 21:48:41 GMT

Worst Mix CD -- 15 song max, the "winner" makes copies for all the loser participants...If they ever have anyone in the car with them, they must go through that CD before listening to anything else...If by themselves, they must play this CD in their car with the windows down if feaseable, unless the winner is in the car...Feel free to judge as hard as you'd like...I already have one judge, but I could always use more...If you want to play, send me a playlist, just know the risk it carries...

There will also be several edits as we agreed that any simultaneous entries will be deleted and replaced...
We've already stricken:
Anything from Aziz Ansari's Mixtape, including LFO's Summergirls, Boy George's Do You Really Want to Hurt Me, Crazytown's Butterfly, Six Pence None The Richer's Kiss Me, Color Me Bad's -- I Wanna Sex You Up, ABBA's Dancing Queen, Rednex Cotton Eye Joe and anything else this edit will take...

I can't remember which xanga I got this off of, but whoever it was, "Thanks..."

Fri, 19 Dec 2008 12:32:40 GMT

I have to say that this site is pretty dead on...
Your Type is
ENTJ

Extraverted	Intuitive	Thinking	Judging
Strength of the preferences %
56	50	25	11

Qualitative analysis of your type formula
You are:

moderately expressed extravert
moderately expressed intuitive personality
moderately expressed thinking personality
slightly expressed judging personality

Rational Portrait of the Fieldmarshal (ENTJ)

Of the four aspects of strategic analysis and definition it is marshaling or situational organizing role that reaches the highest development in the Fieldmarshal. As this kind of role is practiced some contingency organizing is necessary, so that the second suit of the Fieldmarshal's intellect is devising contingency plans. Structural and functional engineering, though practiced in some degree in the course of organizational operations, tend to be not nearly as well developed and are soon outstripped by the rapidly growing skills in organizing. But it must be said that any kind of strategic exercise tends to bring added strength to engineering as well as organizing skills.

Hardly more than two percent of the total population, Fieldmarshals are bound to lead others, and from an early age they can be observed taking command of groups. In some cases, they simply find themselves in charge of groups, and are mystified as to how this happened. But the reason is that they have a strong natural urge to give structure and direction wherever they are - to harness people in the field and to direct them to achieve distant goals. They resemble Supervisors in their tendency to establish plans for a task, enterprise, or organization, but Fieldmarshals search more for policy and goals than for regulations and procedures.

They cannot not build organizations, and cannot not push to implement their goals. When in charge of an organization, whether in the military, business, education, or government, Fieldmarshals more than any other type desire (and generally have the ability) to visualize where the organization is going, and they seem able to communicate that vision to others. Their organizational and coordinating skills tends to be highly developed, which means that they are likely to be good at systematizing, ordering priorities, generalizing, summarizing, at marshaling evidence, and at demonstrating their ideas. Their ability to organize, however, may be more highly developed than their ability to analyze, and the Fieldmarshal leader may need to turn to an Inventor or Architect to provide this kind of input.

Fieldmarshals will usually rise to positions of responsibility and enjoy being executives. They are tireless in their devotion to their jobs and can easily block out other areas of life for the sake of their work. Superb administrators in any field - medicine, law, business, education, government, the military - Fieldmarshals organize their units into smooth-functioning systems, planning in advance, keeping both short-term and long-range objectives well in mind. For the Fieldmarshal, there must always be a goal-directed reason for doing anything, and people's feelings usually are not sufficient reason. They prefer decisions to be based on impersonal data, want to work from well thought-out plans, like to use engineered operations - and they expect others to follow suit. They are ever intent on reducing bureaucratic red tape, task redundancy, and aimless confusion in the workplace, and they are willing to dismiss employees who cannot get with the program and increase their efficiency. Although Fieldmarshals are tolerant of established procedures, they can and will abandon any procedure when it can be shown to be ineffective in accomplishing its goal. Fieldmarshals root out and reject ineffectiveness and inefficiency, and are impatient with repetition of error.

a Fieldmarshal (ENTJ) Rational, was fairly popular in high school. However, he didn’t date much because he didn’t have time for girls. He enjoys dating now but chooses his dates carefully with clear objectives in mind. He’s looking for a long term partner who has a career of her own. He hopes to find someone who enjoys debating political/social issues, discovering new restaurants, and playing some sport together. His biggest problem has been detaching clingy women who haven’t gotten the message that he’s moved on.

What are some controversial views you hold?

Tue, 16 Dec 2008 10:38:49 GMT

HAHAHA...Here we go...

1. I don't believe in political stances... I feel that a lot of the problem is the two major party system...Democrats VS Republicans...They're both wrong...There is not always a black and white answer to the problems within this country...

2. For every woman that says, "Where did all the nice guys go?", there is 10 men that would treat her like the queen she could be if she just thought those guys were attractive, which leads me to...

3. The ladder theory is something I've studied to the point where I feel I could teach a graduate course...No one escapes taxes, death and ladder theory...

4. I think that everyone that drives hummers, gigantic SUVs, trailers, campers or huge pickup trucks should have to get an additional qualification...Some kind of extra testing like motorcycle drivers have to do to get their license...I can't tell you how many times I've been run off the road by soccer mom Sally driving the Escalade while on her cell phone...

5. Speaking of which, I also feel that there should be more stringent divorce and marriage laws...Marriage licenses should probably come with some kind of psych eval with the report going to each other party and their families...Speaking of which...

6. Marriage certificates should come with expiration dates...For legal reasons...I mean...You can always renew...You know, 5 or 10 year marriage licenses? I mean, if you really love someone, then renew the shit outta that thing...How much harder do you think both parties would try if they knew they were coming up on a contract year?

7. Mandatory Pre-nups...If you can't discuss those kind of affairs with someone you stick your uncovered dick in, you probably shouldn't be getting married...

8. We need a modern day Australia...After so many years in prison, they just drop you off on some island...Don't want to rehab? Peace...You had your chances...

9. Legalize drugs already...Just like a license to get married and to drive monstrous motor vehicles, just make people get drug licenses...Safety course and legal training? Make recreational drug users responsible for the effects of the drugs that they use...I see nothing wrong with a recreational drug use if used responsibly...If you aren't working, taking care of kids, making huge decisions and you're in a safe, controlled, private enviroment or in the privacy of your home, by all means, smoke/inject/inhale/snort whatever you want...Society may judge you, but the law shouldn't...

10. Schools should divided into weight classes so that fist fights will be much more even...

11. Boxing should be a high school sport...

12. I did not vote for McCain or Obama...Just like last election, I felt that neither candidate did enough to really earn my vote...I did not want either man representing me or the country that I reside in...Nothing personal against either of them, but I did not like the way either side handled their camps...

13. I feel that Israel has it right sending off everyone into the military for 2 years...There is definitely a lot to be learned from the experience and training...

14. Females in the military should be held to the same physical standards that men have...If I have to run a mile and a half in 9 minutes, she should have to do the same...If we do the same job, go through the same training and get paid just as much, don't you think they should be at the same or exceed the same physical standards that men are required to be at? Where is the fairness and equality there? Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that females shouldn't be in the military, I just feel that in the name of equality and fairness, that should really be reviewed...

15. We should also bring back duels...If you really want to risk getting offed for the sake of your own pride, don't let me stand in the way...Just don't think that we're gonna pick up the tab or take care of your kids...

16. Before people go to sleep, they should have to review a transcript of things they've said in the day...Hopefully, some will be more accountable for the words that actually come out of their mouths...

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